Does Life Come With a Restart Button?

Does life have a restart button?  If so, can someone please email me the link, tweet it, text it, or put it on my Facebook page pretty please?

Again, I'm blogging about the mystery of life and my on-going journey of understanding and learning from my mistakes. It's obvious much easier to do in the movies than in real life because certain things I'm just still not getting.

Today I have "unofficially" reached my max weight...again. What's sad is I said (as many others have) that I will not be here again-but here I am. Why is it so hard to love the things I'm not supposed to and easy to love things I should hate, dislike, and "just say no" too!

Maybe I will revisit WW, maybe I'll just increase my workouts, whatever I choose I definitely need to choose it fast

Day 1, Week 1 of the Prediabetic Life

Yup...the title says it all. Yesterday I received the call from the nurse with the results of my lab work.  Your blood glucose level is "124"...as soon as I heard the news I already knew the next couple of months for me were about to drastically change (aka SUCK!).

In 4 months my blood glucose levels have changed from 105 to 124 mg/dl-that's a HUGE change!  Typically diabetes is diagnosed at 126-130 mg/dl so I'm literally 2 "points" away from possibly being placed in the diabetes category.

It wasn't always this way though...just 2 years ago my blood glucose was under 100 just like everyone elses.  So what has happened in the past 2 years that would cause such a drastic change?  Could it be genetics?  Well, sure since my Dad has type 2, his Dad, etc and so forth. I'm thinking that genetics probably played a small part-and Audrea L Tarver, (that would be me) played the biggest part in all of this.  I'm in charge of what I eat, when I eat, and how much I eat.  I'm responsible for exercising on a daily/regular basis and my dna has little to nothing to do with those variables.  I'm the one responsible for gaining 50+ pounds (which was really hard to lose when I initially did it) and getting totally out of control

That being said...I'm also the one that is capable and will have to be responsible enough to do what I need to do.  If I said I wasn't scared I'd definitely be telling a lie.  I'm scared shitless right now-scared I won't be able to do it, scared I won't be able to change my habits, and scared I won't be able to reverse this. Hell I can't even remember HOW to lose weight anymore!  LOL Granted I know the basic scheme eat less, burn more; but it's so much easier said than done!

The doctor has definitely given me a reality check which deep down I always knew it would come to.  My doctor is SERIOUS too-I have to go back in a month to get retested.  So that means...no sweets for the next month unless it's some sugar free mess.  This totally sucks because I've received so many yummy Holiday treats Lindt chocolate, hershey bars...all have to be placed in the fridge, freezer, or given away.  The twix bar I just bought this weekend-fridge.  Carbs will be reduced and veggies increased-especially the green ones!  So far I've even been able to not eat any candy or sweets and managed to work out last nite; but it's also only Day 2...]

Sigh*

Wish me luck and stength on my journey